Hi, have come back to my tumblr diary or not-a-diary. Missed me? I missed myself. It is good to miss oneself. It is like I have been hiding in a cave somewhere. Sincerely I walk, I talk, but is it me? Is it really me? What is it to be me? I still have been nurturing these “demons” which I realized yesterday again. I wish to have the guts to kick and beat the shhhit out of those crawling mares! No longer able to cope with that self-loathing, self-degrading ME.
I am feeling better. For now.
It has all been piling up lately. I wasn’t even able to leave my bed this morning. Nothing makes any sense. Or maybe, everything makes sense. Life is just not bearable anymore. These shadows that keep crawling and trying to break me. They disguise themselves in all sorts of things..and people. And especially they live inside me. And I feed them. Everytime I breathe.
